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21st June 2020
God is worthy of our praise. He is worthy of praise when we are feeling joyful, when we are in the depths of despair and everything in between. How we are feeling is changeable and anyone with a toddler knows just how quickly and often that change can happen! God doesn’t change and neither does His glory, His grace, His compassion or His righteousness. If he doesn’t change, our response to Him should always be thankfulness, praise, adoration and worship. Even when we don’t feel like it. Especially when we don’t feel like it, because it is in those moments that we are able to come before God and acknowledge who He is, what he has done and all he is capable of doing and that gives him the glory in our situation. Many of the psalms in the Bible are about people facing challenging and painful times and turning to God for help, pouring out their hearts to him, and choosing to praise God for his love and faithfulness.
I recently had a miscarriage and through it all, for me, the way I held tight to Jesus was by choosing to worship. It started with 3 days of uncertainty and then a scan at the hospital confirmed that the baby had not grown to match the age it should have been. When a miscarriage occurs, the baby has often actually died a while before the body realises and starts the process of the miscarriage; in my case this had probably happened 3 or 4 weeks previously. This is why it is too late once a miscarriage has started to do anything about it medically. Thankfully, God is not limited by medicine and so, while it in human terms there is nothing that can be done, we can still pray to God for his miraculous intervention.
I prayed a lot in those 3 days. I prayed that God would give life to my baby and would catch up the growth to the right place. But during those days, I also surrendered my situation to God. I told God that if this pregnancy went no further, and even if I am not able to have any more children, then I would still trust him. I know that ultimately everything will work out ok because my plans and dreams and hopes for the future rest on God and he knows what he is doing. I can say ‘my soul is well’ even when my body isn’t. My satisfaction in God, my worth and my relationship with Him are not based on whether or not God answers my prayer. They are based on the eternal, unchanging character of God – a God who made me, who knows me, who cares for me - and this brings me back to where I started – worship.
In a way it was actually easy to worship in this situation. There was nothing else to do. When you get to a place where there is no way you can change a situation in your own strength, coming to God is the only option. I hope I don’t have to come to this place too often. But when I do, I hope the place I come to is one of full surrender to God in worship.
Posted by Lauren Enright